One minute I want to live, the next minute: My life was infested by people who have gay incest regularly 

From the time I was a little girl I never really wanted to be alive. I knew something wasn’t right with my family. I was born without one. I had to adapt to living in different shelters, brothels, and eventually jails, and I was being abused and sold on Backpage and Craigslist by all of the people there. It was absolutely disgusting getting raped by all those nasty, racist, horny pigs. My body still feels very gross. I haven’t been sold since April 2021. To this day, I am still very grossed out at the level of pain and suffering those AIDS and diseased infested people caused. They were very, very, dirty and unclean people.

All the men I was sold to, were transgender women and bisexual men. All of them were LGBTQ. It was extremely HIV infested and gross. I was sold to approximately 300 or more homosexual men on the U.S. East and West coast while I was being trafficked. Some of the gay men were getting into serious trouble with their gay partners, for sleeping with a woman behind their back. They knew that I would eventually find out about the high amounts of HIV/AIDS and STDS I was being exposed to. They’ve harassed me for so long, I am usually almost always wanting to be dead. They really wanted to infect me with AIDS. 

AIDS & COVID awareness: These images are examples of the type of “men” hustlers that work at restaurants and grocery stores part-time, stocking shelves and touching all of your items without gloves on 

I was sold to these type of men 
An example of the type of Gay men that infested my entire life 

I just can’t stand the pain that the dirty rapists pigs caused. They stick together like white on rice and they always cover for each other in their behavior. My level of homelessness is on a whole new level now. I’m a felon and no one wants me to have anything. I can’t go to the jails, hospitals, and shelters because the people are too infested with incest and diseases, and they keep trying to beat me up, threaten me, harass me, rape me and sell me to the whole city. It’s so gross and sadistic, that I keep imagining what it would feel like dying and never waking up again. They are very, very, funky, and cruel and they never want me to feel anything. They never want me to face my emotions and be mature about anything. They are always wanting to have their way with me. It is SICK. I’m just another worthless dead body to those people. 

I wish I was rich. I wish I had a nice job. I wish I had a record deal. I wish I could afford a nice car, a little tiny house or log cabin, and nice jewelry and clothes. I wish my two kids weren’t being raised by abusive transgenders. I hate being a Welfare recipient. It’s extremely disgusting and ghetto. I want better, but the gays and incest people won’t stop looking down on me, threatening me, and beating me up. I feel disgusting! I don’t want to live like a poor, abused, battered slave! I wish I could protect my 2 kids so they know that I’m really their mom. I wish I had a family, friends, and money. The list of wishes goes on. I won’t be granted any of those wishes ever as long as I live, so what is the purpose of living? To get raped, harassed, neglected and abused by a bunch of nasty pigs all my life? What is the point of living just to be poor and abused by everyone? It’s just SICK!!! I hate being in my own body!!!! I will never let the LGBTQ community, or a nasty jealous man, or married man touch me, hear me, or see me, ever again!!  I haven’t been in a shelter since 2020, I haven’t been in a hospital or a jail since 2018. I haven’t been employed since 2020. I will never return to either of those places. I’m just going to spend the rest of my life in the wilderness, ALONE, waiting to die- like a deathrow inmate. I can not be near those nasty, disease infested, greedy, nosey, sloppy, gay, brutal, abusive, racist, incest-having people. I just want to die, so the narcissistic, controlling incest people can live. 

I don’t want you! You incest having predators are sick, nasty, and FAKE! 
Buy my book or I don’t know you! YUCK!

I am officially racist toward all black people, and I never want to be near another one again, even if they’re mixed with black

I do not buy anything from black people, reach out to black business owners, and I do not ask them for donations, I do not start fundraisers, I do not join gangs, I do not join groups, I and do not join churches. The black race is disgusting and gross. I want the images of all the black people that physically, mentally, or sexually harmed me, burned and erased from my memory, and I never want to see or remember anymore like them. 

Unfortunately, Most black people are greedy, and do not care about me. Most of them are Satanist. Especially the middle class and wealthy. Most of them are ignorant, gay, sloppy, fake, disease infested, crime ridden, and accident prone. The donations, love, support, and care will never come flooding to me during my time of grief. Every time I see a black person, I throw up. They are all eyesores and extremely painful to look at. Most likely, they will abuse and neglect me. I don’t waste my time, money, and most importantly, I won’t sell my soul. I will not let them sentence me to hell for no reason. I avoid them like the plague and I do not fall for false prophets, and fake caregivers, or friends. I will not believe the lies they tell me. They will pimp the living daylights out of me, in the middle of my crisis, and after they are done with me, exclude me, and then cling to each other like white on rice. I don’t want to feel that disgusting anymore. I promise I don’t.

More black people are Satanist these days than they were back in the 90’s. Most of them will claim to believe in  “Jesus” from time to time, but they actually worship the Devil, Lucifer, and Satan on an every day basis. Even though Satan, also known as the Devil, and Lucifer is the most dangerous, disturbing, and evil spirit to worship, they still pray to him, they speak to him, they spend time with him, they give him their all. Most of them will chop off their left foot just to be closer to Satan. They put Satan first every single minute they are breathing. I will not fall for it. The amount of evil that forms from Satanism is absolutely sickening, indescribable, and unbelievable. If I like black people, I will end up in a whirlwind of endless pain, confusion, self-hate, and torture. 

I’m Anti-“po po”, Anti- police brutality- no police presence allowed

If I think black people are going to let me have a moment of silence, they won’t. They’ll just keep applying more pressure and hate during my loss, or time of trouble, and will not send me any condolences, flowers, cards, or money. If you haven’t experienced any of that or you believe that black people will not be that callous towards you, then you aren’t being abused, and this message is not for you. In my case, all of the most dangerous people I met during a lifetime, were black. White people just weren’t around, and I’m pretty sure you know why. 

Black people are gross, nasty, and ugly. I don’t need them. They might be my color, but they are not my kind. It’s 2022, and Black on black crime is still at an all time high. Especially on the East coast, West coast, and Midwest. All major cities and neighborhoods that are full of black people in America, are full of crime, death, and hate. I won’t bother thinking I need them, ever, ever, again.

The entire black community in America has caused me permanent, tremendous pain: I have the same color skin and they don’t care  

Somewhere along the Mississippi River– Lame people make my skin crawl. I don’t want to be around ANYONE. They will HURT me, and then give me a sadistic, sickening, grin. One that I never want to see for the rest of my life. The pain will never leave, because they aren’t all dead yet. I never want to see those people AGAIN. It is GROSS, knowing I was around those incest people, those lesbians, those sloppy bisexual-faggots that are thirsty for attention, those ugly, dyking police officers, project babies, those nasty hospital workers and nurses, those fake gay men, those food delivery workers, those phoney, nasty, funky, smelly, military (army, navy, air force) faggots, those funky, violent gang members, those smelly, nosey religious freaks, those ugly nasty children, those tranny people, and those fat, sloppy people. They were all narcissistic snitches and they are EXTREMELY DANGEROUS AND NASTY. They abused , neglected, humiliated , tortured, beat, and abandoned me. 
I don’t want the black community back anymore. They just want to beat me down more. They might even throw me away for good or just murder me or chop up my body. That’s how fake they are to me. In the future, I plan to be in a more remote location so I wont to look at them, see them, or hear them. I do not accept money from those people. I do not want to move into the projects, go back to school, go to jail, a mental home, a shelter, live with them, visit them, or be anywhere near them. 

Being in the middle of nowhere alone brings me much joy and peace

To all the unmarried straight men reading this, that can’t understand me, or think my life is joke, I am so sorry, I’m not gay enough to want to be around any females for any of you. I no longer wish to be in their presence or yours. I’m going to keep curving them, and staying away from all the gay, smelly, fishy, phoney, whores in the world. I’m sorry if that upsets you. Please do not bully me with your friends, family, homies, or exes. It’s sick. I am not dirty, I am not gay, I am not a prostitute, I’m not a stripper, I’m not mean, I’m not a crack or dope fiend, and you people can not see me. I will not let you. I’m pretty sure you will all find someone someday who can satisfy you and make you happy. I wish you the best! Seriously, I do!

An example of the amount of vomit the stinky bullies make me produce daily

A letter to my most dangerous enemies: You people make me feel extremely sickening and gross. The wilderness and extreme poverty is better than being around you.

Warning: do not attempt to flea any dangerous situation at home without proper emergency preparation • mild explicit language• hate crimes• references to death

Hamilton, IL-Fake people make me throw up, literally. A pool a vomit will come flooding out of my mouth in no time around people who don’t like me. I do not want any women or men near me. I do not want anyone to see my face ever again. They are ALL too gross, negligent, nasty, racist, sloppy, gay, unhelpful and abusive. I do not have a voice around the ignorant trannies and nasty fake lesbos. I do not want them to feel like they can relate to me either. They’re disgusting and they can not relate to my pain. They do not listen at all. They assume the world revolves-around them and that they are the only people with problems. To all the unnatural, fake, racist faggots and gays hating on me and lying on my sexual orientation, you’re wasting your time. I do not want ANYONE or ANYTHING. I am okay all alone. It is very safe being away from you people. Even death is safer than you. Thats why I’ve been suicidal forever. I will not take anymore abuse from you people. Starving me and forcing me to live in poverty is enough. I don’t want ANYTHING FROM ANYONE, even if I only have $10 to my name. It might sound dumb, but no thank you. I am too abused and battered to want anything from society. 

I am a full time solo camper and writer. I don’t hang in crowds, nor do I have a loving family. I have never been married, and I have never had a boyfriend. I was only abused, sold, raped, humiliated, and bullied by big funky lesbos, light skin people, bisexuals, gay men, HIV positive people, fat people, incest people, murderers, animal abusers, thieves, and tranny people most of my life. I have spent the last year of my life abstinent and away from people who might try to harm me. I don’t like meeting or knowing people. I want them all to back off. I repeat- I don’t want ANYTHING from ANYONE. Don’t tell me why you don’t have empathy or can’t care. I don’t care. Translation- You are just narcissistic, gross & sickening, and selfish and you only care about yourselves and your needs, and will always be that way. Please stop making me vomit on purpose. I’ve been vomiting for the past 2 years. I’m not using reverse psychology. I really don’t want anyone around me. Death in the middle of nowhere is much cooler than y’all. I am not gay, a prostitute, or a gay prostitute. If anyone is calling me that they are sick and twisted. The mildly retarded women and men need to stay away from me because I don’t want to hurt the nasty fags. I will end up in handcuffs and in prison around a new set of nasty dykes and gay cops. Stay away from me. I will spit on you or throw feces at you. Do not hurt me.

I only have one mother and two living teenage boys left. Anyone else claiming to be related to me is a liar. They are not my friends and family. I have no one, and I am homeless by choice. If I die out here, I do not want those selfish, sickening, abusive whores and niggas to find me. Stay the fuck away from me. If my birth mother finds this blog, please cremate me. I do not want any remains of my body left. Do not bury me. It is EXTREMELY disrespectful.

The sex trafficker that tried to murder me has just been released from Prison: I hope to never see this negligent fag again 

William Mark James also known as “Dub J” is a sex trafficker I met at a strip party in Norfolk, Virginia (the party was thrown by a man named “ Daddy Cage ” a pimp and local businessman in the Tidewater area) in which I had no absolute business being at. Shortly after meeting him, I found out that I was In grave danger. I left the party with the monster, and my life was headed for indefinite ruins. He was only one of the evilest, nastiest people I have ever seen. 

The damaged the cruel trafficker caused 

William “Dub J” James is the beat me, raped me, and robbed me, stalked me, and forced me into human trafficking. James told me that the key to breaking down women and exploiting them, is to get them hooked on drugs, and that is the easiest way to control their destiny. After abusing me, he apologized seven years later via prison letter. He is also heavily associated with other pimps and traffickers in the Virginia Beach area, as mentioned earlier. He often joins different gangs in different cities. He is very, very, evil and confessed to being a very evil person. 

He is also a rat, and has the police on his side now. He is a male prostitute and street walker. He loves taking dick in his anal, giving head to other men, making love to them, kissing them in the mouth, and then giving his dick all the ugly thirsty, funky-pussy, freaks that love him. He and his little collection of prostitutes are of the reasons I’m always getting snitched on. He also likes sucking every single dick in town for crack and ramen noodles which is one of the main reasons he loses his temper. He was just released on March 25th 2022, after serving a 8 year sentence in Saint Brides Correctional Facility in Chesapeake ,Virginia for pandering and a number of other federal charges. Where is is really from is unknown. I was being heavily trafficked by this guy in 2014 inside a Henrico Hotel and I really hope he never ever finds me again. As far as whore houses and strip clubs, let’s just say I done seen enough and I won’t go back. Those bitches are gross, and so are the tricks and pimps. I don’t even wanna interview, dance, or meet those girls. It’s too dangerous for me. That kind of environment was the lowest form of humanity known to man. 

I do not wan’t to be anywhere near someone who would victimize me. I do not have a team of rescuers standing by my side nor do I trust people. Most of them have nothing to offer me, not even support. They’re fake, hateful, nasty, racist, and useless. 

I’ll never be a groupie for any nxgga or bxtch

Besides not having a trauma bond with this particular trafficker, another reason I did not respond is because I do not have Hybristophilia. Hybristophillia is a person who is sexually attracted to people who commit dangerous and atrocious crimes. They become sexually aroused and act like groupies. People with this twisted perversion called Hybristophilia, tend to think they are are Bonnie & Clyde. 

According to a 2014 Richmond Times news article, James has three loyal prostitutes from California associated with his case, and is involved in a human trafficking ring that I want no parts of. I haven’t heared from him since the last letter in July of 2021 and I’m hoping he won’t make my stomach sink to floor by finding me once this monster is released. When he was abusing me, I never felt so low and useless in all of my life. He was the first person to ever beat me up, but he wasn’t the last. The nasty, abusive trafficker was released from prison, and luckily, I haven’t heard from or seen the nasty man since. I hope I never do, not even a decade from now. I hope the racist fag meets the faggot of his dreams and lives his life happily ever after.

Stone cold killers and haters that are stuck in the past 

Alot of my enemies (all of whom are gay male homosexuals and bisexual and lesbian females) are stuck in the past. They continue to hurt and harass me for decade after decade. A lot of the sickening people are extremely obsessed with me and disrespectful. They will stalk me or spy on me with out my knowledge and then come back to physically, sexually, harass, threaten, or mentally harm me months, years or even decades after I told them to stay away from me. I always assume that they went away for good, and that they will not come back to harm me again. Then when they find me and harm me, people will tell me I “allowed” them to do it, or I told them where I was or I did the harm to “myself”. They want me to look like a dumb person. That’s why I never confide in anyone or tell people my problems anymore. I literally do not have a voice around them. I get abused and neglected EVEN MORE. I do not enjoy talking to more sickening people about personal problems or abuse. As they become more curious and obsessed, they will violate my privacy by planting illegal eavesdropping devices or tracking devices to find out what they wanna know anyway, which is very gross, violating, and hurtful. They rarely get caught. 

Their level of narcissism, greed, hate, and racism has stopped 90% of my normal activities, goals, aspirations, or special interest 

Their Narcissistic abuse, hate, racism, and sloppiness affects me every day. They keep thinking I want something from them. What is there to want? As I stated before, most of them don’t even want me to have basic clothes, medication, food, and water. Why would I have high expectations for anything else around people that are sick, homosexual, and selfish? Why would I want anything around fiends, adulterers, the illiterate, thieves, lesbians, transexuals, bisexuals, college grad gay bullies, pedophiles, crooked dirty cops, baby killers, animal abusers, child molesters, sex offenders, murderers, rapist, inbreeders, the morbidly obese, and the racist prostitutes? Do not keep telling me what I can’t have.

Other facts you didn’t know about me that readers need to know: Fags can have that life 

I DO NOT WANT ANYTHING. I REPEAT, I DO NOT WANT ANYTHING FROM ANY OF YOU PEOPLE. I’M NOT GAY, I’M NOT A BUM, AND I’M NOT MILDLY RETARDED, OR A CLONE. I WASN’T ASSIGNED TO RIDE A SHORT YELLOW BUS BACK IN SCHOOL. I RODE THE LONG ONE. I WASN’T BORN A MAN NOR HAVE I EVER WISHED TO BE ONE AND NOR HAVE I NEVER WENT UNDERCOVER DRESSED AS ONE. I DO NOT HAVE FRIENDS. I DO NOT HAVE AN EXTERNAL FAMILY. I DO NOT HAVE SISTERS OR BROTHERS. I DO NOT LIKE CRACK/MOLLY/HEROIN/METH DEALERS NOR DO I WANT THEM NEAR ME. I’M NOT A FOLLOWER I’M A LEADER. I DO NOT ASSOCIATE WITH DRUG KINGPINS. I’VE NEVER DATED A WOMAN AND I DO NOT LIKE GAY, HOMOSEXUAL, OR BISEXUAL MEN/BROS. I DO NOT USE INSTAGRAM, FACEBOOK, TIK TOK, SNAPCHAT, OR TWITTER. I’M ALSO NOT A PROSTITUTE, ESCORT, PORN STAR, OR STRIPPER. I WILL NOT HAVE SEX/INCEST WITH YOU AND/OR YOUR FAMILIES. DON NOT BOTHER TRYING TO FORCE ME. I’M NOT INTERESTED IN DATING OR MARRIAGE. I AM NOT LOOKING FOR EMPLOYMENT EITHER. I DO NOT PUT IN EMPLOYMENT APPLICATIONS. I DO NOT WANT TO WORK. I’M A WRITER. I’M NOT LOOKING FOR A PLACE TO STAY AND I’M NOT INTERESTED. I’M NOT LOOKING FOR A RECORD DEAL EITHER. I WILL NOT ALLOW YOU TO ABUSE ME, LIE ON ME, OR FRAME ME FOR YOUR PROBLEMS. FACE YOUR OWN. I’M NOT WRITING ALL OF THIS SO YOU CAN CONTINUE TO HARASS ME, I’M SAYING THIS SO YOU PEOPLE CAN STOP BEING SO OBSESSED AND FINALLY GROW UP AND FALL BACK. IT’S SICK HOW MOST OF THEM ARE STUCK ON TALKING DOWN ON ME AND SADISTICALLY OBSESSED WITH TORTURING ME. You people can curve me. You’ve been abusing and neglecting me all my life. Why stop now ? They tell each other not to give me anything and they tell everybody not to like me. They tell each other how to treat me. They plot together. They snitch together. They conspire together They hate together. They do everything together. Those kind of people are all around me.

I’m remaining celibate and abstinent forever: Contracting & Spreading HIV=Life behind bars 

I chose this path myself, no one else encouraged me to save my body. They were all sexual predators. Most of them going both ways. I’m celibate. Celibacy is when you save yourself from marriage and sexual relations. I don’t believe in marriage. I’ve seen too many people having affairs, being gay, swinging, planting hidden cameras, being HIV +, and having incest and gay incest. I’ve also seen instances of people serving a life sentence for spreading AIDS. A lot of homosexual people do not just have one partner, they have multiple, or even hundreds. Sometimes HIV positive people might tamper with the condoms, poke holes through them, or try to make them bust on purpose. It is also important for people that do have the virus, use precautions when sleeping with another infected person, because their strand or viral load of HIV might not be the same as the other infected person, which could turn worsen, and turn into full-blown AIDS.

If you ever see two of the same gender doing any of the following, it is a life threatening red flag: 

feeling each other up, smacking each other on the buttocks but pretend to be playing 

Making you do strip search or asking you to remove your clothes 

calling each other lovey dovey names such as bae, boo, hun, sweetheart, mama, girl, etc…

“two girl” escort specials 

same gender sleeping in the bed together everyday 

kissing in the mouth 

holding hands 

watching gay porn 

texting, chatting, hugging, or flirting inappropriately 

wearing clothes of the opposite gender 

Grinding on each other at a club or party 

A specific gender fantasying over the same gender. Two or more people of the same gender spending way too much quality time alone together or on trips or at frat parties

More obvious signs: 

supporting and watching gay tv/movies/videos 

using gay dating apps or posting sex ads that cater to the same gender 

One who attends gay pride festivals

people who wear a rainbow flag/button/emoji, or symbol or have it hanging in front of their house/yard

males wearing makeup and/or nail polish/fake fingernails/fake hair 

People who share sex toys 

a person who goes to gay clubs/revues/drag shows

a person who takes a lot of of medication or drugs 

a person who looks malnourished or extremely frail

one who shoots dope or uses dirty needles

Please do not take any of these things lightly. Exit the LGBTQ environment immediately. 

Abstinence is when you refrain from something. That is what I am doing. Refraining from sex and drugs. I will never have sex again. It is very, very, gross, violating, and sickening. Sex to me is like eating a bowl of vomit and pee mixed together. I’m scared straight forever. I will never sleep with another fuccing man ever, ever, again. Abstinence is the best decision I have ever made in my entire life. Ten years from today, I will still be single, abstinent, and HIV negative. Some people think I’m slow, but I rather be slow than a fast a$$. It feels awesome refraining from risky activities such as sex and drugs.

HIV & STD risk: When prostitutes, sex workers, and escorts slip up  

Sometimes women who are at risk for HIV and STDS engage in prostitution which is not only female dominated, but homosexual males engage in prostitution too, so it’s always good to be extra careful. A lot of times, sex buyers visit the female workers and male workers at the same time. There are women who engage in sexual acts because their client, or their “trick” does not bring a condom or the sex worker runs out of them. The client will come into the room and say “go ahead just suck it, or lay back and let me just put the tip in, I promise you won’t catch anything.” They will swear up and down they don’t have a disease and that you should just go ahead and do it. Then the prostitute will go ahead and do the act, after the John pulls the money out. 

There is no excuse why the John can’t go to the store or bring his own condom. It only takes a second to run to the store. If the prostitute is in a highly isolated area, then she she has four options. To not be a prostitute, stock up on condoms, do not see clients who don’t bring protection, or go to a different area. I would suggest not being a prostitute at all, but a lot of women wouldn’t take that advice. I still keep a safe distance.

A lot of times, prostitutes will neglect their health to obtain the quick cash that the sex buyer places in front of them. Women in short, and long term relationships also make that mistake, when they fall in love. They can be dating an undercover homosexual for several years and suddenly, out of no where, they just catch a disease. The statistics are very sad. Not only do they hurt themselves, but they also hurt the people around them when they do things like that. I tried to contact Mark Laita, creator of the Youtube docu-series, Soft White Underbelly (a series that brings in millions of views) for an interview concerning this matter, but I did not get a response

Avoiding hidden Cameras : Extreme Sadists,Voyeurs, Evil peeping toms, rental locations, hotels, spies, crooked cops, police busts, and stalkers 

Since people are being extremely gay, close, and violating towards me all across America, and insist on sexually or physically assaulting me and then making me feel left out, I decided to take more safety precaution. Something was just off about the people I’ve been trusting. I started feeling like I was being spied on in 2015 when I had a public housing apartment somewhere in the Tidewater area of Virginia. At the time, I was being forced into HUMAN TRAFFICKING, so I traveled alot. After coming back from NYC, there was an intruder on my couch. That is when the surveillance and stalking started. I ended up trying to illegally purchase a gun, immediately after being hospitalized because the stalkers and spies started driving me to insanity. It was the wrong move. The whole area was absolutely disgusting. There was prostitutes, dope fiends, and dirty, nasty, nosey, and ignorant people everywhere. I eventually lost my apartment after only a few months, moved out and relocated with my mother. I have been getting stalked every since. Blocked calls, threatening emails, rapists and clients popping up my mothers door, etc. It has been nothing but a living sickening nightmare that I can’t wake up from because the sickos keep coming back for me. I will never move to the projects, public housing, or apply for section 8 ever again. 

Six years later, after the stalking started, Around September 2021, I started studying surveillance. I purchased a anti-Spy Cam device after watching an old episode of Inside Edition on hidden cameras inside of hotels. One of the hotels busted for spy cameras was the Knights Inn, located in Virginia Beach on the Ocean front. My heart sank. I never stayed in that particular hotel, but after watching a few more hidden camera episodes, I knew I was being watched a few of the times I was being trafficked in the hotels, as well as in house brothels. The episodes also uncovered the uncleanliness of the hotels and how an unclean environment can make a person sick. After watching, I vomited for a few days but I eventually called a private investigator after the spy device went off all over my mothers house, including the bedroom and bathroom, but not in the garage. I did the sweep over 8 times on several different days and got the same results. I didn’t bother to call the police because they are BRUTAL, SICK, and NASTY to me. They treat my life like its trash just because a few unsupportive dirty, ugly-faced rapist men, and faggot women hate me. Their funky, faggot, lesbian-pussy asses are very hurtful and faggot. Anyways, the P.I. charged me $400 to search the house, but I was unable to get them over there because my mother is the type who wouldn’t let them in. It is illegal to spy in the bathroom, shower, and bedroom. It is legal to plant cameras in common areas such as outside the property, in the living room or kitchen. The cameras must be disclosed. Sometimes the creeps and peeping toms that spy use the content from the Spy cams to post on adult sites, or to stream online or to sell or show off to the world. Technology has drastically improved over the years so a hidden camera could be as small as a dot. They can be planted in pens, eyeglasses, watches, clocks, teddy bears, key fobs, TV’s, electrical outlets- just about anything. They aren’t very expensive either. Some of the high tech cameras will fall asleep when there is no motion. The battery and footage can last for years. Always be careful when traveling, selling yourself or being romantic, renting a new property or staying in a motel or hotel.

I used the anti-spy device at the OYO Hotel while I was on a recent road trip (alone), and it didn’t go off. I felt safe, but I new it was only for a short time. I stayed for four days before departing. Of course, I felt like I was going to vomit because of the mistreatment and abuse I was headed back to. On December 13, 2021, I used the device at Motel 6 in Washington D.C. and it went off after doing the sweep 2-3 times. I kept my clothes on the whole time I was in the room and showered in the dark. I will never stay there again and to this day I’m still inside my mothers house waking up every morning feeling disgusted and sick to my stomach because I know that the narcissistic, predatory, envious, stalking, psychopaths are still watching me and they might eventually feed into their sick, twisted, desires and come back to hurt me once again. When they do no one will care.

Fritzgerald: The Ugly Stalker I met on Facebook 

Fritzgerald who goes by “Fritty Bass” is a rapist I met on Facebook. He loves to trick women into being his girlfriend but sleeps around. He informed me that has two daughters who sell nail polish (something I don’t wear because it looks homosexual) for a living. He will drive to your house by his self then eventually start trafficking you. He will bring his family to your front door to rape you and act like he’s your friend. He has a brother named Roy who is in and out of jail and loves to rape vulnerable innocent women while they are under the influence of some kind of drug. He also has a “sister” named “Barbie” (which is a stripper name) who is a stripper, lives in the beach area oceanfront projects, working at her home club “LA” on Bonney Rd in Virginia Beach, Virginia and is a whole whore, bouncing around from club to club. She yells and verbally abuses her own children calling them all kinds of nasty names. She shakes her funky ass and sleeps with whores and her baby father when she is not stripping. She is a miserable and cruel type of dyking whore. After being introduced to her through this man, a couple of times, I thought her attitude and skank behavior was disgusting. I don’t sit well with those type of people. All of her whore friends are heartless, sluts, and freaks. Once you realize who this person is and how his family is and decide you want no parts, he will stalk you. His mother loves on Tynes st in Suffolk Virginia. He will also humiliate and embarrass you in front of the whole city taking you to different dope houses and crack houses for having a drug habit such as cocaine, alcohol, crack or other habit. He can be found on the east coast in the Norfolk area of Virginia , and in Miami, Florida but his actual whereabouts are unknown. He likes to steal from stores and petty larceny is one of his many hustles. On May 3rd 2021, this creep sent me a friend request on Facebook, that I ignored. I eventually deleted my entire Facebook, because of the brutal hate mail and harassment I kept getting from unknown stalkers. On December 15th, 2021 around 1:00pm Fritzgerald popped up at my mothers doorstep looking for me. My stomach cringed and it started to do a 360. I did not want to see or hear from this man ever again. I told my mother to tell him I do not want to speak with him and felt sick to my stomach and AGGRAVATED for being stalked and HARRASSED for so long. I’m not to fond of racist, nasty, narcissistic, abusive stuck up uncle toms who think they’re too good to take my no for an answer. Those type of people love making my stomach turn on purpose. I haven’t heard from the fake nasty man or his racist black circle since.

I don’t want to be sold at the slave market anymore: Unbearable feelings of being tortured, hated and sold repeatedly  

I am offering spiritual counseling services, sexual health, AIDS awareness, and survival items across the United States for anyone who isnt interested in throwing me away or trying to ignore me and discard me like I’m the scum of the earth or like I’m a piece trash. I didn’t graduate college either (school wasnt for me I couldnt go because of the bullying and abuse), I learned from experience which led to lots of reading,  studying, and self teaching.

My entire life is infected with the nastiest, grossest, fakest humans alive

Everything else I’ve tried to do with my life hasn’t  worked. I keep getting bullied and abused by my family, laughed at by prostitutes, lesbos, gay men, and all women, I also get raped, harassed, stalked, and more often beaten by every man I come on contact with. I often get bullied by crooked cops and thrown into solitary confinement several times, never given any mail, never given any commissary and never had a visit. As of now, no one will watch my youtube channel, support my business, hire me for a job, no man will marry me or be my boyfriend, no one will pay attention to me, and I never have enough money to survive. Females especially, have no regard for my life and they have been nothing but GROSS and SICKENING to me. They make my stomach turn and very nauseous. I don’t get along with any female alive. I dont know what having friends feel like because I’ve never had any. 

I can’t breathe

The same people who tell me to ”go away” or that they dont like me,  don’t want me around, or refuse to support any of my goals are the same sickening people who start stalking me when I run away from them or move forward. They immediately get jealous of me and start acting like they know me and that they are trying to help me. They arent. They are very very annoying, envious, sick people. They dont know me, and they aren’t trying to help me nor do they show me any love. They only do that to cover themselves for the sickening way they have treated me, and people buy it. Then I remain alone,  I helped, unloved and abused. They feel as though I am not good enough or pretty enough to be loved and treated like a human being by anyone. My haters are like robots. They do the same thing to me over and over, year after year, decade after decade, and I can never grow. I try and try so hard to flee this much abuse and hate, and grossness, and I fail everytime. Then they laugh. Its gross. Its embarassing. There are some real racist narcissist all around me. It seems as though people just want to hurt me, beat me down, and then blame me for why the abuse occured. Im all alone. I dont want to be around people. I want to be secluded far away, withough getting abused, where nasty narcissist,  envious pedophiles, gay abusive homosexuals and know it alls, cant touch me or hurt me and I want to stay there forever without them ever finding me. 

Every time I focus on the positive, they only focus on the negative and then they come back looking to hurt me three times worse than they did before. They are a very incest, hate, jealously, disease, death, narcissistic, and poverty infested people. They want me to stay STUCK and live like im always STUCK on how they are. People walking around who dont have regard for human life will do whatever it takes to hurt me. If it makes me cry, they will do it. If it makes me feel alone or if it invades my privacy, and makes me uncomfortable, they will do it. They will publicly humilIate me, they tease me, they watch me suffer. If it makes me vomit, they will do it. They call me out of my name and they apply an enormous amount of pressure and hatred. They are so sadistic, greedy, envious and inhumane and disgusting they will do abusive things to me and laugh while theyre doing it. People just dont care about my life at all. I could die today and they would just laugh, piss on my grave and spit on it, and act like I nevert did anything positive in my life. I think they are too focused on celebrities and the media, to even pay attention to everyday people making a difference in the community. Their world is plastic and fixated upon material gain. Every where I look for support, Im being bullied, stalked, abused or let down by a bunch of insane, gross sociopaths. Im always in grief, and Im always being hurt and mistreated. I can only offer support to someone who needs it and I don’t want anything in return. I wake up every morning feeling violated and sick to my stomach with an extreme amount of grossness attached to me. My body feels molested, raped, used, ran through and abandoned. Maybe one day I will be free, but for today, I probably never will because the sickos always stalk, harrass, or threaten me and they won’t let up. The more I fight them off, the more the haters and abusers grow in number to bully me and tear me down. They will often, downplay every single one of my dreams that I have EVER had, or laugh at everything that should be taken seriously, and blatantly wont support me and continue to bully and harrass because its fun and popular to them to be that way to me. I don’t even want people to know my story or know anything about me but I cannot live in that much silence. They are too gross. I wish I could live a life of peace, privacy and respect- the small things some people take for granted. People do not listen to me, they listen to my abusers and they consistently neglect me while they mock me and laugh at my loneliness and pain. The abuse has been happening to me for over 10 years.